The following poem was written a couple of years after I graduated from high school about my yearning of someone; but due to my extreme shyness and stupidity, she never really knew. The pain of my stupidity has grown and diminished over the years, but has recently peaked as it has been ten years since graduation and I have yet to be able to grow out of my shyness and immaturity.
Anyway, the poem:
Seven years
my heart tears
my eyes break tears
my mind fears,
because I would not speak of my feelingsSix years ago
tight lips would not let go
my feet move so slow
words would not flow,
except for lies, because I feared humiliationFive years a-past
love at-last
but had been surpassed,
by bundles of childish acts
felt heartbeats skippedFour years from present
I resent,
lack of words and sense
words from I, "that's not what I meant!"
a sophomore who's a freshmanThree years vanish
my immatureness banish,
from all lavish
and I wish
that I had told her the truthYear as a senior
my love is much more, for
her, but does not show no more,
than before
Graduation night was the last chanceNow far away
and the love feeling never swayed
she never quite knew, if my heart was in dismayNot her fault, but mine
I committed a crime, convicted of lyin'
that time could not heal
not knowing how she feels
about me'nother year has passed
I feel lonely alas,
wishin' that I would have been
aside as her king,
now I cry of tears
since my love disappeared.
